CATERINA PANCONESI
Have you ever actually felt any guilt? Because it's come as a bit of a surprise to me that I don't, like I can't actually feel it. Like its not something I can get my body to do it, on its own somehow, I can find myself having to summon it and even then I just can feel it. I thought it might be shock at first, and then grief, but I just think I might not feel it. All I can feel is total joy and total peace. I mean I look at you and sometimes I make myself think of him, I force him into my head but I just don’t feel anything. Nothing.
